I Said It

1. A couple days ago while laying in bed I actually missed my ex ...........for just a few minutes. For some reason a feeling came over me and I missed holding each other in my bed. Than the weather changed the next day and I was like puh-leeze its 91 outside, and like I said it was only a few minutes [I guess those moments are part of getting over someone you loved.]. It's Been weeks and That nigga gets no contact from my end.
   
2. Someone please write a post card and thank Chris Brown for that Ebony Cover. After walking past the magazine rack at work and almost tripping after spotting the picture I was Like HALLELUJAH! Man Can he get IT!
3. Damn! A Nigga is so damn horny these days. I guess with the lack of available Pinga around these days Im starting to go through withdrawals lmao. Oh well I guess I can always be celibate lmao. Puh-Leeze!
   
4. Well someone tell fergie & nelly to retire. I Mean Damn Nelly Just model some underwear and get it over with. From what Ive seen your bottom is quite Apple-y. [BTW tell Ashanti if she sang in another tone maybe she'd stop falling off for years after each album. And was she really serious about bringing Ja Rule Out on stage the other day....... Really?]
5. Im in no hurry to jump into a relationship in fact I think I want to be single for a while but i do want the company of another guy in my life. Purely sexual, nothing serious, just sex.
6. Sex, Did I mention Sex Yet? Boy am in need of some long dick slinging freaky deaky rough sweaty man sex. .....................
   
7. Is Marcus Patrick Ever gonna go back to acting? I Mean I Don't mind taking a gander at his fine self booty butt naked but there comes a time when you have to get back on track. It seems like he doing alot more nudes, and stripping than acting these days.
   
8. I Must say I have been realizing that there are some fine white men in the world. Just a few.
9. Whenever John Legend's Commercial Came on at work I can't help but stare at his crotch in those tight white pants. I Just cant help it dammit! And All of our Big Flat screen TV's are High Def 1080p. So Much Detail.
10. Will someone please tell Lil Kim to get over herself at this point please. GOAT? Puh-leeze! If she didn't ride Keyshia's Coat Tails in '07 she wouldn't even still be mentioned. Find a new ghostwriter.
    
11. Ain't It a shame when out of the 15+ A Millie Remixes Out There Cory Gunz And Lil Mama [The Youngest] Were the only ones ripping It? And Lil Mama Went on for 5 minutes. I have to giver her props on That one She Outdid alot of grown damn men.
    

Drawing Nearer........

As the end of my 2 week break from school draws nearer and nearer I'm mentally preparing myself to get back into the school mode. Refocusing on having to trek to school right after work, Yuk! I'm already dreading thinking about have to walk into there today and deal with white people who look at me crazy like I don't belong. Me and my friend @ work were already discussing how theres a total of like 5 black people & 1 Latin female who works with us and I'm and the lone black male. Just thinking about having to do this again but for the entire summer and its already getting into the kind of weather where when you wake up you stick to your sheets and you feel sticky before about an hour after your shower. I definitely have to look for another job after i get my school shit taken care of tomorrow. I definitely have to get this car situation into my grasp so that after work I will at least be able to come home shower and change into some comfortable, clean, air ventilating clothes. I really don't think ill be able to handle wearing the same clothes I've worked & sweating in all day to school all summer. NO. It cant be an option. I definitely have to get this thing on the go. I would have a damn car by now but I had to be Mr. Good Son and help my mother out thus Delaying My Progress. I swear 75% of my life I have been the parent. I could write a book about my life's daily trials and tribulations. But I no longer dwell on the murky details [aka the downers] anymore.

The one thing I can look forward to is Starting school. My major is changed and I will be starting my web development classes ASAP! As soon as I learn some damn coding this blog will go through a complete Graphic Makeover. This time next year I [with gods graces] should have a damn job in my career field and be just making my way out of the trap that is Ohio. Nothing can really stop me at this point but Me, Myself And I. All I have to do is study hard and get my priorities straight. I'm Motivated to have the life i have always dreamed of.

Fuck You / Bitch I'm Actin' Brand New!

It's All About Me These Days.

And like the title says Fuck you if you don't like it. Anyone whose remotely close to me knows that I'm a very outspoken person. I tell you exactly what I think and if you don't like it. I really don't care. But I'm gonna say it. I sugar coat NOTHING! And If you don't like it........well you know where to go. But right now It's all about my happiness at this point. I realize after putting so much of myself out there for one person and it all meaning nothing to them and all of it crashing back down on me, I'm so over it at this point. I will never sacrifice my feelings or lay them out there for another human being to toy with & stomp all over. My attitude has definitely changed in just these past couple days. I feel like now if it doesn't benefit me to hell with it. If your blocking my happiness you have to be expunged. If your stopping my progress I'll Step on you with my new pair of Dunks. @ this point if you ain't talking bout progress why we speaking? I cant worry about others peoples feelings I'm on my way to the top and if you ain't on rising to the top with me ill leave you at the bottom with the rest of them fools. If anything you can call me the puppeteer cause I'm gonna be pulling the strings from now on. I Just feel like its time to get a grip on things and start controlling the outcome. As My girl Mary J. said, "No More Drama" and I definitely feel if I want to be happy and your in the way well you can either walk along side me or fall back. It's Time for me to have my front as well as my back. And any stragglers that get in the way can eat dirt as it kicks up from behind me. Hate Ir Or Love It Either Way It's The Way It is.

Again,

Fuck You / Bitch I'm Actin' Brand New! - Lil Wayne

Exhausted

Tomorrow could be life changing for me. Depending on if I get this job life could become so much easier for me. I would be able to afford all the necessities I need and it would get my foot in the door on getting out on my own. If I get hired at this JOB I could finally purchase a car, an apartment, and start focusing on Me, Myself, and I. Everything would start to fall into place. There would be so much I wouldn't have to worry about. Everything would come together.

These last couple weeks have been draining my energy. Between work and finals everything is taking a toll on my state of mind. I'm so mentally & physically drained. I'm always tired and I can never have a decent nights sleep. All the beautiful weight I had gained is gone, and now I weigh less than what I did before. My body is drained. I feel like all my Energy is being sucked away from me by some unknown source. And I hate not being well rested and having Energy. I just feel depleted. Thank God that after tomorrow ill have a 2 week and I repeat 2 week break from school finals will be over. Hopefully ill have a new job after tomorrow also. I'm Praying.

HIATUS

I have decided to take a short hiatus from blogging. I am going to take a week or 2 break from this thing[I'm Just a little bored i guess]. I'm just going to time to refocus on school, purchasing a car, My Art, Trying to get an apartment, and other important things that I need to take complete and utter focus on at the moment. I'm 21 and time is doing nothing but passing me by. Its time to get myself in the game and get the things I want before this summer is over. And Before my deadline of 23. Lol. I'll continue to write comments and read others blog but for myself I wont be posting for a while.

[I Need A Nap!]


*PRIMO