BOREDOM

As of late, I have been becoming increasingly bored with blogger. I think I'm so tired of writing about my life and I'm more interested in documenting things that I like, and inspire me....

I've noticed the trend with other bloggers as well.... some people aren't updating for weeks at a time..... I mean when I update it seems like a hassle just to want to write..... It used to come ever so easily.... @ the moment I think I'm going to concentrate on my self improvement, this lil pet project I have started over @ Tumblr, and my other blog Visionaries.... I need things to feed my creative energy.....

In other words.... I wont be posting here for a good while.... I will continue to log on read and comment on those that I follow....

But, I need a break from this.... I'm just done for right now.... I'm sure ill return, but right now.... A much needed Break is due....

until I Return....

» PRIMO

Quick Recap

This Past week I have just been enjoying my week off from school. Just Relaxing and enjoying not having to week up early....Sleeping In..... How I love sleeping In....


My week so far has been OK.

Sunday: I went to church and the sermon was really good. I really got the message and I swore he was talkin' to me....

Especially When he said @ the end that he could feel there was someone who was a little confused and their at a stand still about joining the church. Don't be Afraid. Don't let the devil syke you out.... Upon those words i felt an immense swelling in my chest. I really felt as if he was talking directly to me..... [Especially since a few weeks ago I was supposed to join and ended up missing church last week.] Upon him saying that my dad and step mom both look at me and say what you waiting for?.... I was at a loss for words......

Monday: Was Just a straight chill day. My family except for my dad stayed home due to the Mere 5-6 inches of snow they got. It seems they shut everything down here if there is a chance of a light frost. I Can remember trekking to and from school in Feet of snow In Ohio. I Tell Ya.....
Monday Night I received some pictures From The guy Ive been talking too. After last week deciding to shut him completely down the pictures gave him some hope.... Wow was all i could say as each one was better than the last...His body is right..... I Must Say.... LMAO.. I feel as if i don't like him but hes definitely someone I could have sexual relations with when Im Visiting in OH..... Hey theirs nothing wrong with Sexual Relations As long as you safe about it..... [LMAO @ Sexual Relations] Anyways he made his way back on my good side..... For Now...... He's a cool dude but his conversation sucks..... I cant see it going anywhere besides the Casual Dickdown.....

Tuesday: Relaxed @ home with the little brothers until I went to work @ 4 Which also was slow and calming.... I Hope tonight is the same.....


On A Sidenote:

[Just Me, My Dignity, And This Guitar Case.... Wo----ah!] <- Love That Part....... My week has been an uneventful one lol. Im gave up Myspace for this month...... Im so damn tired of it. I think im going to delete the shit.... I barely use it and im tired of reading the same ol shit from people Back home[in Ohio] rambling about little kid shit... I'll see how I feel in a month. Ive been trying to get my CD Collection back to its former glory. Buying CD's here and there On TPC[Temporary Price Cut] from work. Most recently I had to get Amy Winehouse - Back To Black Back in my grasp.... I Love that CD and I definitely needed it seeing as how I been feeling lately....[I Also Got Janelle Monae - Metropolis: The Chase Suite..... I Love this girls sound I Cant wait for a full length.... Check Her Out...] My Music is my therapy and that CD always helped..... I Dunno My emotions are becoming stable but still I feel little Twinges here and their in my heart..... I Dunno whats going on with me...... All I can say is im going to enjoy these days I have to myself alone.....

[EDIT: After Showering I Realize That I Need Sto Start Focusing On Whats Going on Now. And Leave The past Behind Me. Like The Preacher Said: Your History Doesnt Determine Your Destiny.....]

After Break

I thought I would be able to post something a lot sooner but it seems since this quarter has started I have been out of the loop and struggling to get back into the swing of things. But to make along story short because for some reason now that I have a second to post I don't even feel like it lol.

But anyways......

I have made the decision to move with my father. I figure I'm not achieving anything here in Ohio so why not try to create a fresh start for myself somewhere else. And he lives somewhere near D.C. so I figure I will find a way better job after graduating school then I would around here. Plus he is trying to help me get on my feet with a car and an apartment something no one down here is even considering. So everything is pointing me in that direction and god knows that I have been praying for a clear direction, a clear path that I should embark on and this seems to be the one. So now I just need to mentally prepare for this move and get my transfer shit together because before I know it, it will be the end of November and I will be making that trip.

School just started last week and after a 2 week break from it I have totally lost most the information I thought I had retained. I guess instead of chilling I should been keeping my nose in the books. But that break was really needed.

Lately I have been hating being "celibate". O.k. I'm not really Celibate but after the lack of sex that has come my way and the fact that I haven't had any in months upon months upon months I feel like I'm Celibate. I mean I'm really in need of some Male on Male Physicality With some Gorgeous Specimen of a man. Ive never been into anonymous sex not knocking anyone who is but I'm just not into it. Especially with everything running rampant these days[HIV,STD I DON'T NEED EM!!!!]. But I'm not ready for another relationship, but maybe a friend.

Other than that I have been feeling mad creative and It just seems I don't have the time or the space to let it all out.

What am I to do.


Till Next Time.....

Drawing Nearer........

As the end of my 2 week break from school draws nearer and nearer I'm mentally preparing myself to get back into the school mode. Refocusing on having to trek to school right after work, Yuk! I'm already dreading thinking about have to walk into there today and deal with white people who look at me crazy like I don't belong. Me and my friend @ work were already discussing how theres a total of like 5 black people & 1 Latin female who works with us and I'm and the lone black male. Just thinking about having to do this again but for the entire summer and its already getting into the kind of weather where when you wake up you stick to your sheets and you feel sticky before about an hour after your shower. I definitely have to look for another job after i get my school shit taken care of tomorrow. I definitely have to get this car situation into my grasp so that after work I will at least be able to come home shower and change into some comfortable, clean, air ventilating clothes. I really don't think ill be able to handle wearing the same clothes I've worked & sweating in all day to school all summer. NO. It cant be an option. I definitely have to get this thing on the go. I would have a damn car by now but I had to be Mr. Good Son and help my mother out thus Delaying My Progress. I swear 75% of my life I have been the parent. I could write a book about my life's daily trials and tribulations. But I no longer dwell on the murky details [aka the downers] anymore.

The one thing I can look forward to is Starting school. My major is changed and I will be starting my web development classes ASAP! As soon as I learn some damn coding this blog will go through a complete Graphic Makeover. This time next year I [with gods graces] should have a damn job in my career field and be just making my way out of the trap that is Ohio. Nothing can really stop me at this point but Me, Myself And I. All I have to do is study hard and get my priorities straight. I'm Motivated to have the life i have always dreamed of.

Sorrow Decreased

I Must Say that i loved my break from school last week. Only work in the morning and i rarely ever get scheduled more than a 6 hour shift and then being able to come home and not do anything. Not a damn thing. It was nice just to be able to change clothes after work and just sit at home and enjoy life for once. So as i was enjoying life you can tell that i got nothing accomplished Lol. I'm still strong in my campaign against smoking. The weird thing is that i haven't even had the urge to smoke and the one time i did i was drinking and when the blunt came my way i simply dismissed it. Can you say progress? It may not seem like progress to you but for someone who loves weed and all of its heavenly nature [after all it is Nature's Candy, It's From The Earth, And in the words Of Smoky "God Put This Here For Me And You"] It's progress. After Saturdays Winter storm i was so drained. My back still hurts from all the damn shoveling i did that day. Ive realized my passion in life [Graphic Design] and sadly due to hasty decisions it has to take a backseat for a couple years. But i will still pursue it whole heartedly in my own way.

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Lately I have been inspired By the works of Peter Chung creator of the One of a kind Aeon Flux, Katsuhiro Otomo creator of the brilliant Akira, Artist Moebius, and Nickelodeons Avatar: The Last Airbender [Fire Nation Exclusively]. All of these are great influences on my ideas for my own creation. The problem is that i want my work to look something like these and am having trouble developing my own style. It's gonna take a while to find my signature but when I do it will be the shit. Believe It.

I am definitely buying The complete Collection of Aeon Flux Episodes On Amazon, Along With Akira.

Here's A episode Of Aeon Flux One of my favorites as a matter of fact. For those of you who don't know Aeon Flux is a character who dies in every episode and in the entire first season there was no talking in any of the episodes. Except for the Word "Plop!" In this episode. So Its like a visual Narrative told absolutely through the animation. I Love It. This episode is influenced by a book called Story Of The Eye. Alot of people don't understand this animation but it has always been a favorite of mine since MTV began airing it in the early 90's. This a animation done by Peter Chung who definitely has his own signature style And from seeing it showed me that nothing ever has to be perfect as you will soon see. Creativity Is Not Perfect But Pure, Natural, & Fluid.

[I Should Start An Art Blog... Just A Thought] :)

Aeon Flux - Leisure