Go Ahead....... Ask!

I was thinking I have never done a post like this before......
And I think it could be interesting.......

So I'm gonna let anyone who reads or just happens to stop by to Ask Me Anything their little heart desires. Which in turn I'll try to answer As Truthfully and Honestly as I can in a another post.

Go Ahead....... Ask!


[BTW, I just realized that this is my 101st Post. Hooray For Me! Lol. ]

Random Thinking......

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It honestly feels good to wake up and have nothing on my agenda. To wake up when I want too and just laze around for a bit before doing anything....

Too bad it will all end next Wednesday due to another quarter beginning.

My Income tax should be here next week. and all of that money will be going to either getting this beater sitting in the driveway fixed or something new...... I'm hoping for something new..... Either way I gotta have something by the end of this month because My Dad & Step Mom are taking a trip to Louisiana For a wedding for 4 days and I need to be able to get to school & work.

The gentlemen Ive been talking to is stepping his game up..... Sadly I still don't feel anything besides a Sexual attraction....... Can tell he likes to be the dominant one in a relationship and sadly the more I let him know that I don't bend or break for no one the more he seems to be attracted..... I don't get it......

It Honestly feels good to not feel attached to someone. It feels good to feel free of strong emotion for someone.... I guess what I'm saying is it feels good to be single, perhaps?

It seems as if everyone I know headed to Florida or ATL for spring break...... My Spring break isn't anywhere near yet but I know I wont be spending it in either of those places...... Maybe next year........

I'm Proud, Happy, & Very Blessed to have a best friend. A Best friend who cares, listens, and talks to me about everything under the Sun....... If I didn't have her in my life I cant even begin to Imagine the type of person I would be or where I would be right now..... I am very Thankful to have Her...... She Is Truly My One True Friend....... Sometimes I hate to say friend because shes more like my Sister...... I Love Her to Death.....

Quick Recap

This Past week I have just been enjoying my week off from school. Just Relaxing and enjoying not having to week up early....Sleeping In..... How I love sleeping In....


My week so far has been OK.

Sunday: I went to church and the sermon was really good. I really got the message and I swore he was talkin' to me....

Especially When he said @ the end that he could feel there was someone who was a little confused and their at a stand still about joining the church. Don't be Afraid. Don't let the devil syke you out.... Upon those words i felt an immense swelling in my chest. I really felt as if he was talking directly to me..... [Especially since a few weeks ago I was supposed to join and ended up missing church last week.] Upon him saying that my dad and step mom both look at me and say what you waiting for?.... I was at a loss for words......

Monday: Was Just a straight chill day. My family except for my dad stayed home due to the Mere 5-6 inches of snow they got. It seems they shut everything down here if there is a chance of a light frost. I Can remember trekking to and from school in Feet of snow In Ohio. I Tell Ya.....
Monday Night I received some pictures From The guy Ive been talking too. After last week deciding to shut him completely down the pictures gave him some hope.... Wow was all i could say as each one was better than the last...His body is right..... I Must Say.... LMAO.. I feel as if i don't like him but hes definitely someone I could have sexual relations with when Im Visiting in OH..... Hey theirs nothing wrong with Sexual Relations As long as you safe about it..... [LMAO @ Sexual Relations] Anyways he made his way back on my good side..... For Now...... He's a cool dude but his conversation sucks..... I cant see it going anywhere besides the Casual Dickdown.....

Tuesday: Relaxed @ home with the little brothers until I went to work @ 4 Which also was slow and calming.... I Hope tonight is the same.....


On A Sidenote:

[Just Me, My Dignity, And This Guitar Case.... Wo----ah!] <- Love That Part....... My week has been an uneventful one lol. Im gave up Myspace for this month...... Im so damn tired of it. I think im going to delete the shit.... I barely use it and im tired of reading the same ol shit from people Back home[in Ohio] rambling about little kid shit... I'll see how I feel in a month. Ive been trying to get my CD Collection back to its former glory. Buying CD's here and there On TPC[Temporary Price Cut] from work. Most recently I had to get Amy Winehouse - Back To Black Back in my grasp.... I Love that CD and I definitely needed it seeing as how I been feeling lately....[I Also Got Janelle Monae - Metropolis: The Chase Suite..... I Love this girls sound I Cant wait for a full length.... Check Her Out...] My Music is my therapy and that CD always helped..... I Dunno My emotions are becoming stable but still I feel little Twinges here and their in my heart..... I Dunno whats going on with me...... All I can say is im going to enjoy these days I have to myself alone.....

[EDIT: After Showering I Realize That I Need Sto Start Focusing On Whats Going on Now. And Leave The past Behind Me. Like The Preacher Said: Your History Doesnt Determine Your Destiny.....]

Lil Boys.....

Them Hustlers Keep On Talkin......

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The guy who Ive been talking to lately is kinda boring me. All He seems to want to talk about is sex. I swear when we first started talking the conversations were so much better And I Thought he was more mature but now lately all it is is SEX! SEX! SEX! S.E.X.! All he wants to do is exchange pictures when not talking about sex and before I can even get a Hello in after he answers He's asking me where my pic at? Now I aint gonna lie I Sent Him 1 [An old one I Sent my Ex A While Ago... So its Nothing Special.] But thats all you get from me. He's Sent Me like I Dont know how many already including Ass shots, Dick Shots, And other numerous poses of his body. I mean I dont mind him sending me pictures but I dont do all that modeling without recieving a check/major contract at the end of the shoot, A Spread In Seventeen Magazine, and Tyra critiquing it While batting her fake eye lashes. It really annoyed me to no end. Then I made the mistake of telling him I upgraded the OS on my Blackberry so that I could record video... Big Mistake...... Someone started assuming they were recieving a video... Puh-leeze Negro. You cant even get a picture so why do you think you getting a Video? I guess I made him mad cuz someone didnt contact me for a couple days... then last night as im watching videos on my Zune I get a call From Him. I wasnt in the mood to be bothered so I just let it ring..... then what do I recieve? A picture captioned with: Wake Up! As if im supposed to get excited and jump out my sleep. LAME!!!! Puh-Leeze! The dick better be in the same room for all of that and you aint that cute Anyway! Shit Everybody Knows I like my Sleep.

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Oh Yeah My Ex texted me at work talking bout He's mad I moved and he misses holding and cuddling with me. Then tells me he Hates Me only to text me 20min later saying to ignore the last text and that He was "Sorry" <- Tell me something I dont know... I Didnt even respond. It makes no sense to me and I really didnt get the whole thing. Besides you have a BF so why are you texting me stuff like that????

Lil Boys........

Why Cant I Find A Man??

[[ P.S. I Feel So much better than I did yesterday.... I Think way too much sometimes. I feel like im having the mood swings of a pregnant woman.... ]]

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I cried for the first time in a long time Last Night.......

It was something I needed......

I feel so Melancholy now........

I Pray and ask Him.....

Where Am I Headed?

Please Show Me The Way.....