Thoughts On Love....

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Me & My Partner In Crime /Right Hand Woman / Ace Boom Boom / Sister From Another Mother, Best friend Etc. Had a conversation the other day where I proclaimed I don't think I ran into my First Love.... She replied that I was in denial and that my 1st boyfriend was my first love....

Honestly that is something I used to think. But...... now after a year has passed and I have matured just a Lil more, grown up, have gotten past that Situation <-[ I Mean C'mon I refer to it as a Situation 95% of the time] without being bitter, and taken the time to really reflect on what it really was I feel as if I was the only one who was in love the whole time. Thinking back on things I used to ask him and his responses its clear now more than ever that I was the only 1 in Love in that situation..... He never once told me he was in love with me....

So I Say I dont think it was my first love because in order for it to be my first love wouldnt those feelings have to be Mutual in order for their to be love in the relationship? I feel as if it was "First" And their was no "Love". Or It Was " L-O..... and the V-E just never quite matched up. I feel as if it was only 50% the whole time......

She says it doesnt matter it still qualifies as First Love.......

I Think I stil havent run into that Person......

What Are your Opinions On This Matter.

Answers

Thanks To everyone who stopped by and left a question.... it was nice to know that you guys wanted to know about me and now I feel as if I want to share more... The questions were interesting to say the least.

Anyways Here is the Results.......

»WhozHe:

1.Describe the type of guy you would be interested in.
WOW!!! This is a good question. I One I really don't know the answer too but... After some thought The type of guy I would be interested in is someone whose mature, honest, outspoken, funny, goal-oriented, ambitious, trustworthy, confident, and knows or has an idea of what he wants to do with his life. Someone who wants more out of life than the average males I know and seem to encounter. Of course I would like him to be attractive and take care of himself. Race wouldn't matter but I love me some Black & Spanish men. Lol. But at the end of the day I want someone whose gonna love me for me.......... That was just what I could think of @ the moment.... Oh yeah thanks for stopping by.

»Fuzzy:

1. What state are you from?
Ohio (ugh! I dread even telling people that!)

2. Name one thing you always wanted to do but consequence prevented you from doing so?
Prolly Rob A Bank! Snipe Someone! Oh!!! Smack Lil Mama For All them damn outfit choices.... Id prolly be oversexed if their was no HIV/STD's........ Hmmm theirs others but i don't wanna delve to to deep lol.

3. Is there anything that you can't forgive?
Any wrong doing against children. I hate when Children are victims in a world where they cant fend for themselves....

4. Why did you start blogging?
I started blogging to release all the pent up thoughts that are constantly materializing in my head. This blog is truly a release. When I go private ill share even more including pics.

5. What makes you happy?
Sadly I feel as if I don't know true Happiness. All my life I've simply just known how to adapt and be content. I'm on a journey to do what I need to do now to make myself happy. I hope I reach it. I seem to be in the best of moods when chillin' with my Family/Friends.....

6. Name 3 of the most MAJOR things that would piss you off/aggrivate the hell outta you?
1. LIARS! Mainly people who say one thing and do another 2. People who can take responsibility for their actions. Cant man up and say I did it. Its my fault etc..... 3. Childish Ass Adults ..... oh yeah Did I Mention Liars!!!!

»RocaFella07:

1. Do you have myspace?...Link?
Yes I do have MySpace. I'm honestly thinking about deleting it tho..... Havent Logged on in a while. I needed a break from the lil ass kids back home..... As for the Link ill Email that to you.

2. Do you use LGBT online dating sites?
Never Used one of those sites. I do browse occasionally but I've never signed up for one..... I dunno why tho. I guess im not into random sex with all the stuff floating around these days..... sometimes I wonder if im too careful..better safe than sorry...... Am I missing out???? Lol.

»Memphiz:

1.Where do you (or want to) see yourself in 5 years?
I hope in 5 years I'm thriving in a career I enjoy doing. In a relationship with someone I care deeply for, and living in or planning on purchasing my own home. Out and proud. Living in FL, NY, CA. Traveling the world. Enjoying Life with friends & family. Stacking Dinero $.

2.What is one thing you can't live without?
Family. I wouldn't be who I am without them. I love my crazy ass family.

3.What is your favorite comic?
I'm more into Anime/Manga. But I love X-Men, Transformers, Naruto, Samurai Champloo, Akira to name just a few..... Trust the list is long!!!!

4.What are some of your hobbies?
Reading. Drawing. Sex. Making Money. Shopping. Working out. Kicking it with friends. Eating out. Doing anything relating to Art & Design.

5.If you can live anywhere what place would you pick?
Miami, FL or Brazil or Tokyo, Japan or NYC. I hope to live in FL or NYC one day. I plan on visiting Brazil & Tokyo before I take my last breath.

6.Do you want kids?
I want kids. I want no more than 2 boys. I've always seen myself with 2 boys. I guess ill be a gay daddy some day lol. Hopefully.

7.Do you think a woman could snap you straight?
You know I'm not sure anythings possible! Even though I have no desire for women I want to have sex with one before I die. I dunno. I love men but Like I said anythings possible.

8.Thong or G-string? LMAO!
I've never worn a G-string or thong. I hear their quite comfortable tho. I do like those tight little briefs tho. They fit my ass real nice! I do love men in thongs, G-strings and not to mention Jock straps tho. I'll try all 3 some day......I think their all sexy....

9.What are some of your goals?
Some of goals are to one day have a certain amount of money in the bank by the time I'm 40yrs Young. Own a Web business. Own Atleast 2 homes & 2 cars. Have a family. Most importantly Know what it feels like to truly be happy, satisfied and loving myself and my Family. Also be closer to god and be in good health.

10.What would your advice be for someone who is sexually frustrated?
If you Have a boo Tell your partner exactly what you want! Even if your a novice think about what you might enjoy and go for it! Sex is supposed to be fun and enjoyable for both parties....Take chances and don't be scared! I tell em exactly how I want it! And 98% of the time they ask before I have to tell them! And when all else fails Masturbate! Its natural and you'll get to know your body. And Always Wear Protection!!!!

Go Ahead....... Ask!

I was thinking I have never done a post like this before......
And I think it could be interesting.......

So I'm gonna let anyone who reads or just happens to stop by to Ask Me Anything their little heart desires. Which in turn I'll try to answer As Truthfully and Honestly as I can in a another post.

Go Ahead....... Ask!


[BTW, I just realized that this is my 101st Post. Hooray For Me! Lol. ]

Random Thinking......

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It honestly feels good to wake up and have nothing on my agenda. To wake up when I want too and just laze around for a bit before doing anything....

Too bad it will all end next Wednesday due to another quarter beginning.

My Income tax should be here next week. and all of that money will be going to either getting this beater sitting in the driveway fixed or something new...... I'm hoping for something new..... Either way I gotta have something by the end of this month because My Dad & Step Mom are taking a trip to Louisiana For a wedding for 4 days and I need to be able to get to school & work.

The gentlemen Ive been talking to is stepping his game up..... Sadly I still don't feel anything besides a Sexual attraction....... Can tell he likes to be the dominant one in a relationship and sadly the more I let him know that I don't bend or break for no one the more he seems to be attracted..... I don't get it......

It Honestly feels good to not feel attached to someone. It feels good to feel free of strong emotion for someone.... I guess what I'm saying is it feels good to be single, perhaps?

It seems as if everyone I know headed to Florida or ATL for spring break...... My Spring break isn't anywhere near yet but I know I wont be spending it in either of those places...... Maybe next year........

I'm Proud, Happy, & Very Blessed to have a best friend. A Best friend who cares, listens, and talks to me about everything under the Sun....... If I didn't have her in my life I cant even begin to Imagine the type of person I would be or where I would be right now..... I am very Thankful to have Her...... She Is Truly My One True Friend....... Sometimes I hate to say friend because shes more like my Sister...... I Love Her to Death.....

Quick Recap

This Past week I have just been enjoying my week off from school. Just Relaxing and enjoying not having to week up early....Sleeping In..... How I love sleeping In....


My week so far has been OK.

Sunday: I went to church and the sermon was really good. I really got the message and I swore he was talkin' to me....

Especially When he said @ the end that he could feel there was someone who was a little confused and their at a stand still about joining the church. Don't be Afraid. Don't let the devil syke you out.... Upon those words i felt an immense swelling in my chest. I really felt as if he was talking directly to me..... [Especially since a few weeks ago I was supposed to join and ended up missing church last week.] Upon him saying that my dad and step mom both look at me and say what you waiting for?.... I was at a loss for words......

Monday: Was Just a straight chill day. My family except for my dad stayed home due to the Mere 5-6 inches of snow they got. It seems they shut everything down here if there is a chance of a light frost. I Can remember trekking to and from school in Feet of snow In Ohio. I Tell Ya.....
Monday Night I received some pictures From The guy Ive been talking too. After last week deciding to shut him completely down the pictures gave him some hope.... Wow was all i could say as each one was better than the last...His body is right..... I Must Say.... LMAO.. I feel as if i don't like him but hes definitely someone I could have sexual relations with when Im Visiting in OH..... Hey theirs nothing wrong with Sexual Relations As long as you safe about it..... [LMAO @ Sexual Relations] Anyways he made his way back on my good side..... For Now...... He's a cool dude but his conversation sucks..... I cant see it going anywhere besides the Casual Dickdown.....

Tuesday: Relaxed @ home with the little brothers until I went to work @ 4 Which also was slow and calming.... I Hope tonight is the same.....


On A Sidenote:

[Just Me, My Dignity, And This Guitar Case.... Wo----ah!] <- Love That Part....... My week has been an uneventful one lol. Im gave up Myspace for this month...... Im so damn tired of it. I think im going to delete the shit.... I barely use it and im tired of reading the same ol shit from people Back home[in Ohio] rambling about little kid shit... I'll see how I feel in a month. Ive been trying to get my CD Collection back to its former glory. Buying CD's here and there On TPC[Temporary Price Cut] from work. Most recently I had to get Amy Winehouse - Back To Black Back in my grasp.... I Love that CD and I definitely needed it seeing as how I been feeling lately....[I Also Got Janelle Monae - Metropolis: The Chase Suite..... I Love this girls sound I Cant wait for a full length.... Check Her Out...] My Music is my therapy and that CD always helped..... I Dunno My emotions are becoming stable but still I feel little Twinges here and their in my heart..... I Dunno whats going on with me...... All I can say is im going to enjoy these days I have to myself alone.....

[EDIT: After Showering I Realize That I Need Sto Start Focusing On Whats Going on Now. And Leave The past Behind Me. Like The Preacher Said: Your History Doesnt Determine Your Destiny.....]