I Need To Implement This Into My Daily Life. It Should Definitely Be My New Motto....

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Lady Gaga | Beyonce | Ciara

Beyonce

Now we all know Beyonce is Notorious for biting, flipping it, and making it her own. And believe me I aint hating Cause B does it like no other, she'll have you believe she made the whole look up her damn self, she does it so well. But not a trained eye like mine. No Indeed, Absolutely Not. But lately Seeing all her I Am... World tour pics and thinking of her videos Everytime I see A picture or video I cant help but Think

Lady Gaga?!?!

The Diva Video <[Since I cant embed that baby] was what did it for me.

The Black Corseted

Piece was so Rihanna. the first time I saw the Diva video I'm like

I know B aint got

Rihanna making a Cameo [ we all know she dont allow

other bitches in

her videos... hell! the dancers be lucky they get to be there...],

but then the close up and its B wearing something thats so

Rihanna's Style.

Then She has the Sunglasses, Bikini Leotard, heels,

asymmetrical jacket,

I think damn she looking like Gaga! The whole video I'm

like the only time

where she actually looked like Beyonce was the first 45

seconds when

she walks into the building. She used to have her own

style but now.. not so much.

She has a great street sense when shes

just out and about

but when it comes time for Sasha Fierce to come out...

Thats another story.

Every time I see B performing, she in something:

Assymetrical, Graphic, Black & White, or a leotard

with something protruding out of it like..... GaGa.

Lady Gaga

The new chick on the scene. Lady GaGa is the only chick out there I think in a few years will be able to stand toe to toe with Beyonce on the Pop Scene. She already Killing the Dance Genre.

She has what Christina And Britney Both lack. Gaga can sing, Britney Cant. GaGa Can dance, Christina Cant.

Plus she writes and produces

almost all her shit and designs her outfits.

Plus everyone from Christina Aguilera & #2, Paris Hilton, Nicole Richie, < [Click to See Pic Cuz Them
hoes wont get a pic On Here]
To Beyonce is already biting her unique Style.

As long as she keeps carving out her own path,
I Think GaGa is here to stay.

Now Ciara.......

Chile, Dont even get me started.... she went from this: Classic, Street, Chic! Just All around well put together!

To This Flaming Stroke Inducing Hot Mess!

This Girl got too many concepts going on and she don't know how to execute them correctly.... Her album Fantasy Ride was supposed to be a 3 Disc Like B's is a 2 disc. Just after she got sexy on us on The Evolution I thought she was gonna deliver..... She lost her Momentum just like Rihanna is about too. [Hell the only Thing Keeping Rihanna Afloat is her Clothes, and the Chris Brown Trial.... I Like Rihanna But She just doesnt Have any Musical Swag.... I Could Never see her Doing A Remix To Someone else's song on a mixtape. She A Studio Singer to me]....... Ciara, She Stay Biting Beyonce..... Oh Yeah And Don't get me started On LoveSpellSickMagicianPotionSpell Or whatever the hell its called...... Hate That Mess!

Chile Just Do The Song With Chris Brown.... Thats All I Want!

Chile... The Stills Say enough On that one.....

What You Think?

C R U S H [2]

Ok Back To The Sexy....

Well anyways a couple days later, last week to be exact, I was walking in. it had to be about 9 last sunday cause I was doing a overnight at work and we were closing. well anyways I was walking up to the guest service desk to talk to my friend J who works up their. And lo and behold Here Comes [hold on I haven't give him a name.... Ill call Him "Fresh". His name is actually very similar to mine in the fact that it rhymes with mine, his just has a C at the beginning.] So lo and behold comes Fresh looking well Fresh! lol. So him and J converse and he calls J @ bitch and such and walks away. So I use this as my opportunity to find some info out about him. J tells me he's New, His age, and what his name is. And that "Fresh" is a all around cool as hell dude. Im like OK as I watch him walk away. So I go to get some food/drinks since I was going to be their overnight from 9pm-6:30am, and on the way back to the front end I see "Fresh" and he's like what up, I say what up back and he's like I haven't seen you here.... you been here all night? Im like Nah Im just coming in. Im doing a overnight... He's like damn what time yall get off I'm like 6:30am he's like damn I couldn't do it I like my sleep. Im like "yeah me too but I get the rest of this week off till sat after I do the 2nd overnight tomorrow". He's like "oh thats cool. " then we exchange names and he's like he has some work to finish cause we close in 5 minutes, so hell see me around... Im like Cool its on! :D Already Anticipating the chance to hold a longer conversation with him the next time I see him.

Well I Got My Chance!

One day last week I came in and looking at the where they had me sectioned to work @ I noticed that he was put there too. I Was like oh wow. So I clocked in with a smile lol. but anyways when he came in we talked like the whole time. Thats when I noticed how nice and straight his teeth were [I think its very attractive]. He's half German, Half black. He's a army brat and was born in Germany and lived there for 14 yrs. He's lived all over the US and I think he even said he lived in Canada for a while. He's 20 but very mature. Very calm and real chill. Also kinda flirty in a way. And very damn funny. We was seriously Lunchin' on the clock. Probably the most fun I had at work since I left all my real good work buddies in OH. He's A lot more mature than younger guys I've known in the past tho, because he seems to have alot of focus on where he wants to go in the future. Then the surprising thing was that he lives in my neighborhood.... well a different section. All the little housing developments have names like little villages. but all in all he's like 3 minutes away. When he found that out he was like "oh thats cool." In my head: Im like you have no Idea. He is so damn sexy! He's so my type. The whole time i was talking to him the freakiest thoughts were visualizing in my head. I could see myself having some fun with him. Im like it would be great to end this like 6.5 month drought lmao! But all in all I think he's Straight, simply because he talked heavily about females. And each and every time we had eye contact he always pulled away a second before it got too long. That night when it was time to clock out & go home I wanted to ask him did he need a ride home but for some reason I couldn't find him cause our supervisor kept separating us[ cant stand his Big Lazy Slow Ass.] Oh well But, its So Good to have something Gorgeous to look @ while Im @ work. I haven't had a Crush on anyone in so long it doesn't even feel right. lol. I feel like why? but Im also like :D Its only Healthy, Right?.... I think I'm going to slide him my number, btw

I say its like that age old question: How many Licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop...... Ya just never know dammit! So I figure why not try!

The Good thing is I get to work with "Fresh" today.....

I Just Hope I Don't Overheat :D

C R U S H

[Your Probably Saying What??? No Music?]

So....

I Am So Crushing On one of my Co-Workers. He's new and He Is one of the Ca-Uuuuutest Things I Have Ever Seen. Especially For where I work where the Lack of Eye Candy is Ridiculous. I mean besides the new guy there is only one other fine guy there. The rest are..... 

Anyways Back to The Sexy, we will begin from where i first laid eyes upon him. I was walking in to work one day about last week, and I saw him from a distance heading towards where we go to clock in and out. Well i was going to clock in so I had no choice but to follow him. Now at this point all I have seen of him was from the side from a distance and the back of him about 10-15 steps ahead of me and I had already concluded that he was cute. I knew from his walk and clothes [Nice Polo, Khakis, Red/Black Jordan's] that he definitely [and I think this word is so overused these days, but] Has Swagg. <[ UGH! DID I JUST TYPE THAT???] Then Of Course Im watching the back of him and I getting the best view ever. Light-skin, About  My height 5 ft 7 or 5 ft 8. Thick. and He Has The nicest Ass! I Mean Its Nice! Nice Size, Firm, Round, Sitting High, Just Overall Excellent. A Nice Athletic Ass. And Not To Mention When ever he took a step His Shirt Was moving in the back! I LOVE when a guys shirt moves in the back. Its like Instant Notification that: Yes! Im working with a fatty over here. Its All For Your Viewing Pleasure!

This Is Me @The Sight Of The Shirt  Moving.....

I Mean I Coulda Just Died! Just Died!

 But anyways, i finally make it to the time clock and he's their with some Miscellaneous white boy who lightweight was blocking my view, and I was ready to slap a bitch because of it. So he clocks out and turns my way, Im Instantly like :D  As THE HEAT Consumes Me. This dude is so my type he is So. Damn. Cute. I just walked pass checking him from every angle [and trust me he was cute from every angle possible] until he walked out the door. Luckily I was there alone because I definitely said out loud Damn Pa Is Fine! As Soon as he left I was already wondering what his name was, and when is the next time he worked. LOL.

More Later As I have Work To Do And I Dont Want Procrastination To Take Completely Over.....

Must See!

This is one Film I Must See [besides Transformers & Harry Potter] This Year. Gotta See It. The trailer is just so damn Honest & Real!

Watch It And See What I Mean!

Click the Poster To View The Trailer, Since My blog always cutting stuff out of frame...SMH

Precious: Based on The Novel "Push" By Sapphire

Forgiveness

Forgiveness....

Forgiving People is something I'm still learning to do, I guess. Yesterday I sat in church and the sermon was about learning to forgive. I have forgiven a lot of people in my life for all they put me through coming up And trust me I went through a lot of unnecessary things no one should have to go through, But for the most part I feel as if I have Let Go of a lot of things that were breaking my spirit. The problem is I feel as if theirs still some things that recur in my memories that I think about at times without even realizing I'm revisiting it in my head until I noticed my mouth moving. Yes! i caught my self talking to myself the other day about something that happened in the past. I was taken aback. I didn't even realize that I was replaying the situation. I immediately began to pray and ask God to Heal My Heart and allow to me to rid myself of things that I am allowing to linger and carry around within myself.

Yesterday, in church he said exactly what I needed to hear. A lot of what I already knew but it helped None the less. There is a lot I have gotten over from my past but I guess there is still some things I still haven't gotten over and some things I just haven't let my being release. I Guess all I can do is continue to Pray On It....  Nothing happens over night.

I'm A Work in Progress....

Closure | 1 Year

@ the end of this month, I will have been single for a whole year. A Whole Year. I bring it up because I was just thinking yesterday about how far i've come, how strong I have become, How much I have matured, and how my outlook on relationships and what I want and look for in a guy have changed. Yesterday though, my Ex text me asking me about my myspace status. We then somehow got into a conversation about if either of us thought their could ever be an "Us" again. I already knew that answer on my end and I knew his also seeing as how he's in a relationship. We both mutually agreed No. Him because he's really enjoying his 16yr old Soul mate, and he's in love. I'm honestly happy for him. To Each His own. Me because I'm don't see any reason in going backwards in something that I don't feel will work beyond a friendship. We are way better friends than we were lovers, In my opinion. So it was cool to me that we both mutually agreed on it and there was no hard feelings on either end. Well not on my end anyway. I felt, even though we both had moved on ages ago, it gave us some type of closure in something that was still kind of an acute loose end.

Its been a year for me, and I'm honestly ready to date. I Say date because I dunno how I feel about a serious relationship right now. I'm honestly content being Single. Working on myself. It doesn't mean I don't enjoy the company, and conversation of a Sexy man, but I don't feel like being in a relationship.... Maybe a couple months down the road but right now... I'm Cool On It! And honestly before I can be in a relationship I need to tackle one last "Hurdle". That "Hurdle" being coming out to my father. That main point of my visit home was to talk to my mom about it. But if push comes to shove I know I have somewhere to go back to, even if Ohio isn't where I want to be. But, Once that is accomplished then and only then can I feel I can commit myself to someone worthy of my Time/Love/Heart openly and honestly. This last year has really been a eye opening one for me. I made a lot of mistakes, that I have learned from. But most importantly i learned a lot about myself. I was able to overcome and triumph over a lot, and that I am grateful for.

Now it just seems I have to climb over this wall and meet the person on the other side. Me. Waiting to greet, comfort, and pat myself on the back, breathing with relief.

One Word. Two Syllables.

One Word. Two Syllables. Druh-Ama. 75% of it consumed My Trip...

Update Later, Just thinking about the mess is making me sick...

Not even sure if I want to write about it at this point...

Maybe... Maybe Not...

Before I Hit The Road....

I Cant wait To leave..... Only just a few more hours Till we depart.....

As soon as I get out of this damn class I'm going home to pack and then go get a crispy ass haircut. Cant go home looking a damn mess!!

Everyone Enjoy Their Weekend! I Know I Will!!!!

Anyways, Enjoy these pics of John Legend's Shirtless Sexy Ass!!







SMH.... You Have No Idea What Id Do To Him....