Reanimation

Lately i have been thinking of making myself over. Reanimating my style. I have always noticed that around where i live every guy wheres the same thing, The Norm. The norm meaning White tee, jeans, gym shoes and im so ready to seperate myself from that look. One thing that i said i wanted to do was a more fitted look and i already wear more fitted shirts i now buy sizes no larger than a medium a large if i have to but no larger than that. The problem is im still wearing the norm: White tee, jeans, gym shoes and i desperately want to eliminate these items from my wardrobe. White tees will be for sleeping in, my jeans will be a tighter fit no more baggy jeans for me thus meaning i will have to actually try things on at the stores WHICH I HATE WITH A PASSSION! I will eliminate sweat pants from my wardrobe completely will be for those cold winter nights. For those days where i just fill like i want to throw on a pair of sweat pants i will replace those with some nice Nike/Jordan track/warm up pant types. I want to my look to be more fitted, more casual, more mature, yet sporty and comfortable. My shoe game will consist of many diffrent brands. I Love Nike Dunks(My #1 Favorite type of Shoe), Puma, Timberland, Chuck Taylors, and many other diffrent shoe brands. Im especially feeling those casual gym shoes that you can where with some nice pants and a nice button up or polo and wear out to the club. Yeah Who Makes Those Types? I Want a more casual mature look. Ecko is my absolute favorite brand and i love Marc Ecko's more mature Line Cut & Sew (links In My Section To The Right). Im Tired of dressing like im still in highschol & every other male i know that lives in my area. It's time to seperate myself from the pack and dress the way i want in my own style no matter what anyone else has to say about it. Im just really at the point where im ready to do me and say you either with me or against me. Lifes way to short to worry about other people at this point.



It's time to do me.

WORKING OUT!

Lately i have been talking about how my weight or lack there of is bothering me again. Ive Always wanted a nice body, it doesnt have to be like the guys i see in the magazines but just something that i can look at in my mirror and be satisfied with.

Im Doing It For Me, so that i can be satisfied with my appearance

As Of Tomorrow I Am gonna research the steps necessary to get the body i want. Im 5ft 7in and right now im 120 Pounds. dont get me wrong heavier guys have told me they would kill to be this thin and my boyfriend loves my body. :) Im very good looking Nice Flat stomach, toned. But I hate being thin. Ive always wanted to be heavier, have more meat on my bones. Be More muscular. My Goal Is To Be Between 160-175. The Highest my weight has ever been was 140 ( I Loved My Body Then!!! ). So as of tomorrow im going to try to start to consume healthier food and more of it And of course work out to build muscle. I figure this way i'll save tons of money on the gas i wont use going to the east side. So when i get bored at home I'll Work on my art/drawings and hit the weights. Now All i need is a IPod to listen to while i work out. Ill Post any Updates on here of course. So Wish me luck and my goal to get in shape and be healthy.

Tips & Advice are more than welcome.

A Break

I was gonna post last night. but i was waaaaaaayyyyy to tired from typing my paper. I wrote that bad boy in about 2 1/2 hours and its full of nothing really. All of my papers that i have written for this one class that i have to write papers for have been full of nothing. I pull sentences outta nowhere, thesaurus.com is my amigo.

I'm so tired of life at the moment. My money woes, school, finding a job, my relationship. It's all just too much at times. I'm so glad that tomorrow is thanksgiving and i can finally have a decent meal this week. my weight has dropped from actually not having a decent meal this week. One of my top 3 goals was to have healthy body image, to always have the body i wanted a nice muscular toned body. But having my dream body requires nourishment and exercise. Dont get me wrong i have the weights to use but not the food. To have food you need dinero and thats just something im lacking at the moment. I already have a fast metabolism and about a year and a half ago when i was actually gaining weight and reaching my goal of 150-160 pounds i got a job that used and worked me to the bone for minimum wage and i started to lose weight very quickly. If i skip a meal i literally begin to lose weight. it takes me forever to put it on but i can lose pounds in a matter of hours. Ive found in order to gain and maintain weight when i put it on i have to eat at least every 2 1/2 to 3 hours. Right now my weight is a mere 120. well actually its about 116 according to the scale and it something im not to happy about. i love food and miss it very much but at the moment im struggling to stay sane and alive on a daily basis. thats why im so so so so happy that after tonights class i have a week and a half off from school and i start a new job come saturday. Im relieved but still not where i want to be. Im really gonna have to go above and beyond so that these people keep me at the end of the season, because this job is purely seasonal. So either they keep me come january or its off too me searching for a new job again. I can only pray i suppose. I need a break tho. Life is beating me up at the moment.

My relationship sometimes confuses me to no end. He has mood swings like a girl on his period.
I dunno. Im Tired of everything.

Like i said, Life is beating me up at the moment. :(

Andre? Where’s Andre? Has anyone seen Andre?

Project Runway Is Back And I Am Relieved.

I mean with the abundance of shows like I Love New York, A Shot At Love, And The Disappointing Real World(only The Episodes In Coral-Vision Are Entertaining) Which They Bombard you 5-6 times a day with numerous reruns of episodes you seen what 4 hours earlier, TV Is ridiculous at this point. There are only a few good shows on tv that i actually take the time to watch and project runway is one of them. Theres alot of refreshing designers on this season. A LOT of talent and fresh new personalities. I Mean if you watched the first episode you can tell season 4 is gonna be very very good if not one of the best. Theres so many designers i dont think i can pick a favorite at the moment. Some of the ones im going to keep my eye out for is Carmen, Ricky, Christian (what an ego!), Rami, And a lot of the others. Those were just a few i remembered of the top of my head. Oh Yeah and the hippie tree-hugging flower child who embued the fabric with grass stains. HILARIOUS! but the bitch can sew. Theres really alot of talent. Project Runway has given me a reality show with some substance besides people gettind drunk every night and competing for someones Love. I Mean how come there hasnt been a gay show like this yet? Do Gay People Not Need To Find Love??????? & Get Drunk? Geez.

I have my set shows each week.

Heroes

Cane

ANTM ( I Only watch for Bianca & Salisha )

Project Runway

Avatar: The Last Airbender ( Dont Hate I Love Cartoons And This Is The Best One Out!!!!)

Now............ Make It Work!

Liars

Ok So I call target the fucking HR Human resources manager isn't there. So Im gonna call him tomorrow to see whats up with this job. Or else im headed to the temp service. i gotta do what i gotta do. my day was ruined when i found out my lying ass grandma and lying ass aunt fucked my money situation up. Im no longer associating myself with these two people. they are now considered Frenemies. They will get no longer than arms length. they can have nothing from me. NOTHING. not a ride not a hi not a dollar. Im sick of being fucked over by people when they know my situation. im tired of helping people when they in need and in return they fuck me over. im done dealing with people who do nothing but bring me down further in this game called Life. Im So tired of the people i dont need. I feel like its time to trim the fat. Im Done with them. everyone knows i hate liars and i dont deal wit liars. I feel like if they aint spitting out dollar bills then they have nothing to say to me. flat out. That's all too it at this point. I feel like at this point the only people i can trust is my mom, dad, best friend and my boyfriend. IM DONE! Its sad, but at this point i feel like its true. no one else gives a damn about my situation. im tired of life.

Obsession ( The Male Form Part - 2 )

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Obsession ( The Male Form )

Lately Ive been obsessed with the male form. the male physique. the male body. So Ive been trying to find pictures that would help me to draw the male form. I Think I May Have just found my first subject. I came across this Beautiful Deity just a few minutes ago and the first thing that popped in my head was my best friend and how much she'll like this guy. physically if I'm not mistaken, her type. i present to you fine ladies and gentlemen














Zach Burns - Model

Chris Brown - Exclusive

What Can I Say. He Put His Foot In This One. Its A Front To Backer Here Ladies & Gentlemen. He Definantly Set Himself Apart With This One. Waaaaaaaaaaaaay Better Than The 1st. If you Dont Have It Go Buy It. Its Worth The $10.00 And I Aint Bought A CD Since '88. You Definantly Notice The Growth In Subject Matter. Give It A 10/10. He's Doin His Thing And Has No Competition From Anyone His Age In the Music Biz.

Interview

Interview Tomarrow. Wish me Luck People. Pray For Me.

What The Feezy

What The Feezy!!!!!! (Took It Back To H.S. Wit Dat One) Ahhhh. im so ready to find a job its ridiculous. i mean i cant wait for a call back. i feel like an actor waiting for my big break, a musician waiting to be signed. i just dont have any luck right now. Im desperately seeking a job. gonna hit up the mall tomorrow hoping i find something. even if its just seasonal would do me some good yknow. cant a nigga get a break. Not only do i have to deal with being embarrasingly broke, my mom is calling me like every morning talkin bout i need to go look for a job. HELLO! LIKE I AINT LOOKING. Im so sick of people always tryna tell me what to do. and its always the same people who dont do anything for me.

Im getting tired of school. im passing dont get me wrong 2 A's and a B. But im just so sick of being broke. It's making me negative at a time when everything else is so positive. i remember when i used to say im so happy i have a job and everything else in my life was in shambles. not everything is smooth except for my problem of not having a income in a world where at the end of the day its me and only me caring about my well being. Well no thats not entirely true i am in a relationship with someone who loves me for me. And im grateful for that. What can I say i guess i got no other choice but to keep looking until the good lord blesses me with something.