Tuesday, April 28, 2009

My Heart |

I wrote this the other day in a couple minutes on my blackberry... Very short, very simple. It just summed up what was going through my head at the moment. Enjoy.


My Heart Is So Open

And yet, Its Closed

The Love I Have No One Knows

I think a lot

Oh yes, Its true

I think a lot

A lot about you

Someone I haven't spoken to

Someone I haven't seen

Someone I May never know

Someone who is made for Me

The road is long

And I have just Refueled

I'm ready for the stops

The heat

The cool

I don't know where I stand

If I still believe or not

But like what I said is true

I think a lot

A lot

About you....


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Monday, April 27, 2009

Dwayne Johnson

No One is doing it for me like Dwayne Johnson......

Every time I see him I get what I call The Heat. THE HEAT always seems to happen to me when I see something so Amazingly, Perfectly, Scrumptiously,  Appealing and its like my body gets surges of solar flares or something. All I know is the blood flows and I get ridiculously warm all over. Dwayne Johnson never fails to have this effect on Me. He just seems to always be looking better and better. I bought the GIANT Magazine with him on the cover :D This is one man if I ever got up under you would never see or hear from me again. Here's Some Photos I Love..... Enjoy!






Thursday, April 23, 2009

Going To My Hometown...

In about a week i'll be back in Ohio. I haven't been home in about 6 months and its hard to believe but I am honestly happy to be going home and visiting. I miss my family so much. I didn't realize it until its started getting closer and closer to the date where will hit the road and make the trip. I cant wait to see my family. There's no one like them and I cant wait to just sit and lunch with them. I cant wait to catch up with everyone and hear all the story's i know their going to tell. LOL I'm smiling just thinking about it. I really cant wait to see everyones face. It's so funny to me as much as I wanted to leave I cant wait to get back and kick back some drinks next weekend. The one person I cant wait to see is My Mom & Grandma.... I miss them both so much.... I really need to sit back and talk to them about things and my thoughts. I Miss Them Both dearly, even though I know when I get their we will probably drive each other nuts. I Cant wait to see My Little Sister either we have absolutely a lot to catch up on. A lot. I cant wait to see the human sky scrapers that are my Lil Brothers. I can only imagine how much taller they have gotten. Im the oldest and the smallest lol. Yeah Aint it a trip. LOL. Its crazy but i really cant wait to touch down. Things will probably be as if I never left.......


Hmmmmm............ Home.......... How I Cant Wait.........

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

There



Is 

So

Much

Racing

Through

My 

Head....

As Of Yet, I Don't Know How To Express It....

Friday, April 10, 2009

Lil Boys..... [2]

I Tell ya every time I give someone a chance again they ruin it. I'm done with guys from my hometown, I'm sure of it. the guy who I was talking to who from back home I think I Refer to As T on here [if I didn't who really cares?] appeared out of nowhere again after disappearing for weeks. It seems like ill talk to this guy for a good 2 weeks and hell disappear for at least 3-4 wks and return with a new phone number and acting as if we just talked yesterday. I don't even like dude seriously. I'm only halfheartedly sexually attracted to him [aint that a shame]. Before he contacted me a couple days ago he was telling me how he hit up my ex on Myspace [they're old friends from high school who talked but their was no connection] and they exchanged numbers, and messaged each other etc. So he calls me up telling me how he talked to my ex and how he seen my ex's new boyfriend and how cute my ex was blah blah etc. Old shit I already know. He talks about my ex as if he's trying to get some kind of rise or start some kind of drama but seems taken aback when I tell him oh, OK. That's cool. Hes like you don't care if i talk to him. I'm like no. me and my ex are friends and we don't even talk on the phone like that he may text me like once every 2 months to see how I'm doing and that's the extent of the conversation. at this point T is seeming kind of salty. I mean I only told him I didn't care about my Ex how many times? Been There, Done That, Moved On. So the next day I talk to my Ex and I tell him about T. Hes like "oh he didn't tell me you guys talked or whatever.... that's why he was asking me stuff about you on Myspace and stuff," I'm like "yeah he told me talked to you on their. I told him "T's OK but I don't like him and theirs nothing more than a slight sexual attraction." He's like "I really don't see him as your type". I tell him "hes not honestly" he also told me T asked to hang with him and his new Bf and he told T No. We laugh and hang up. So what do ya know the next day T hits me up. We talk about nothing[as usual] and he asks me when the last time I talked to my Ex. I tell him annoyed last night and that I told him that we talked. He's like "Shocked" and then he's like "I didn't tell him we talked.... that's why he isn't answering any of my Texts or anything." At this point I'm thinking what is he trying to pull. Putting the math together I think hes trying to talk to both of us at the same time or what? I Dunno. Then he starts to laugh like maybe I shouldn't be talking to both the Exes at the same time. I Tell Him that I don't care who he talks to because I'm not dating either of them and I'm grown and can do what the hell I want when I want and so can he, and that him talking to my ex doesn't bother me in the least bit. I also told him im not feeling him like that. He's like don't act like you don't care about my Ex blah blah blah. I tell him whatever I don't know what he's on but I'll talk to him later because he talks about nothing!!!! And to be quite frank I don't have time for someone trying to start drama.

So anyways he hits me up like 3 days ago and I tell him ill call him back since I was truly busy at the moment. I didn't call him back. The next day after i lay down at someone blows my phone up 4 times while I'm sleep. NOW AGAIN! Everybody knows when I'm sleep! I'M SLEEP!. Aint no coming back. Especially to answer the phone for someone I don't really like. I can see if it was someone I like but no it wasn't so I let it ring and rolled over. No Pillow talk Tonight! Sorry For ya! I mean we wasn't gonna talk about shit anyway. conversation with this guy is Mundane, tired, and boring as hell. All he wants to do is talk about sex. That's it. talking about sex and exchanging pictures gets so boring after a while. At this point I'm so damn annoyed! So Thursday night he calls and we talk for about a half hour. He gonna tell me I be on Bullshit cause I like to play phone tag. Excuse me? I dont call you, you call me. So what the hell are you talking about. I'm Annoyed. Conversation commences and The whole time I'm sleepy as hell, bored as hell, wondering why I'm wasting my time and ready to get off the phone. I told him I was coming home the first of May and someone auto assumed they were getting some of this. Um..... NO! N.O. I mean he still at this point thinks hes gonna get the chance to poke at this. Naw sorry. After ignoring his relentless banter about what he THINKS hes gonna do to my "cheeks" <-[His words, Tomfoolery @ its best!] he switches the conversation from sex to ...... For A Thousand Alex....... SEX! UGH!!!!!!

Sidenote:
[This is what my eyes looks like in the direction of the phone at this point....]

[BTW, This Child is sending someone Some serious Heat! Cyclops Style!]

I'm sorry I enjoy sex just as much if not More than the next man, I Have a very high sex drive, I'm a big freak and I love getting it BUT that don't mean I wanna talk about it ALL day. Theres more to me than that. I told myself after breaking up with my ex that I would try to get to know guys I talked to before jumping into all that sex talk. Because quite frank I want the guy to get to know me. I wanna take things slow and know you. Not just fuck you. lmao. At first I was interested but as you can see I'm clearly not. Someone as of yesterday is getting cut off. I Will no longer be answering his calls or texts. I'm just plain annoyed. I'm Done.

This Blackerdry Deserves A Rating...

Number of Sad/Psycho Ass Que[Of Day26] Face's [Out Of 5]

He Gets 4: For Being a Repeat Offender / Paper Gangsta

Dream Variations | Langston Hughes

Dream Variations
By Langston Hughes

To fling my arms wide
In some place of the sun,
To whirl and to dance
Till the white day is done.
Then rest at cool evening
Beneath a tall tree
While night comes on gently,
Dark like me--
That is my dream!

To fling my arms wide
In the face of the sun,
Dance! Whirl! Whirl!
Till the quick day is done.
Rest at pale evening . . .
A tall, slim tree . . .
Night coming tenderly
Black like me.

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Self | Improvement

I believe its time for me to start making the necessary changes that I have been thinking about for the last month. I have been in such a Positive state of mind the past couple weeks. I have been thinking Positive and dwelling on positive things. I have been feeling Wonderful. So today I think is going to mark the start of me continuing this Positive state of mind. I'm mentally almost there now I want to be physically there. I want to improve in all areas of my life. Its time I start Believing and doing what I know I Am Capable of. Its time to take advantage of the things I have and get out there and Make It. Not for anyone else but myself. Its Time For Me To Make my own way. Its time for me to become the Go Getter I used to be. Its Time for me to Make It with no excuses. Its Time To Take Charge. I know there will be hurdles ill have to Jump and walls I have to Climb but I feel as if I'm ready to do it. Its Just Time.... I Feel It.

ITS TIME!