Worry

I worry about my Money Problems. Its is the only thing wrong in my life right now. I know i have bitched and bitched and bitched about this situation in countless blogs to date but it is my only problem at the moment. Im Ace-Ing School right now. Couldnt have a more wonderful and loving relationship. My 1st mind you and its almost been 2 months. 2 WHOLE MONTHS! STICK THAT IN YOUR BACK POCKET!!!!! But my money problem is the biggest thing on my plate. I just cant seem to find a job anywhere. and im in desperate need of money at the moment. I really dont feel like asking my dad for some money because he's already offered to buy my glasses which will be expensive mind you because im picking them out and he paying. But having to pay for gas to go to school everyday(which is Far) and having to buy food everyday is killing me. Not to mention I have bills to pay like the next person. I MEAN IM REALLY BROKE!!!!! I MEAN I have little to no money at this point. Im reaching Zero and im so ashamed at my financial situation. Ashamed. No one knows how much money i really have because i am Ashamed. I Am so Ashamed at how broke i am. So Ashamed....... Im Trying To Keep A Cool Head But At This Moment Only God Knows How I Feel. And Only He Has My Back.

Caribbean Men Of Color - Horizon Barcelona

OK OK OK OK. I Know Your Gonna Love these. These Are Some 10's Right Here. The Definition Of A Papichulo In My Book. I Found these on Another Blog Today (Which I Have Recently Added To My Noteworthy Selections Section). But I Just had to post them up on my own for that effect. I mean These Black & Latin Men Are Fine. I Mean It Aint like we all dont know that Black & Latin Men Are The Finest Men God Created. Why The Hell Else does everyone else run around tryna Be, Look, & Act Like Us.?!?


These Ladies and Gentlemen Are Deities
If I Had to choose from one of these fine specimen of Men i dont think i could choose just one. But At the moment im sure favoring Papi in the baby blue down there. All Of them 10/10 Scrumptious.



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It'$ Ju$t Life

$$$$$Dinero. Money. $$$$$$ I need it so badly. I gotta alot of shit to pay for and no money to cover it. Cell Phone Due. Insurance. Gas Money. Food Money. Not To Mention i need money to buy new breaks which will cost me about $100.00. I Need A New Job So Very Badly. its not even funny. my financial situation is bonkers right now and all i can do is ask god to send me something soon. Not to mention theres so many things i need. I Mean THANK GOD I was smart enough to catch a winter jacket on sale last march for $25 or i prolly wouldnt have one this winter. Its crazy right now. Everybody think i got money in the bank when really a nigga is broke. Embarrassingly BROKE. Im going to look 2marro morning for something with my grandma hopefully god blesses me soon. Christmas is coming around and i would love to get Not only myself but others stuff. All I Can Do Is Pray At This Point. :(

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The Tribe Lost...........
Hungry.............
Jobless.................
Bank Account Nearing $0.00 Status

Can u say trying to stay optomistic about life, but financial woes and bills drawing nearer are slwoly but surely bringing me down. God Please Send Me A J.O.B. PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Now i must go to school.

Thinking......

Listening To> Rihanna - Good Girl Gone Bad






Thinking always gets me down. its like 12:00 o clock and a nigga is bored at home by himself. Thinking about life & my relationship. I think in my relationship I have a tendency to over think things. Right now im really missing Him. I feel like theres something between us. I Feel like he distances himself from me like hes afraid to open up to me at the moment. Sometimes i wonder is he still feeling me. Sometimes hes just so quiet & other times hes so vibrant like theres an aura around him and he loves being around me. Now dont get me wrong i know he love me and I him, but he has a turbulent past and has trouble expressing his feelings whens he down and out. And i YEARN for him to open up to me. I mean me and him plan on being forever together. We only been together a month and we already talkin bout how its gonna be when we move in together lmao. We cant wait. I Love Him. I Just wish he would open up. But yknow its only been a month and i havent really considered that at the moment. It feels like we been together for forever yknow. So yknow i guess i cant be mad or upset its only been a month. I cant exactly expect him to just open up about everything and spill his guts to me yknow. But like I told him, When he's ready Im here to listen.

Refocus......[$$]

Wait Till I Get My Money Right.......



As of late i have been equally bored. My financial problem is increasingly becoming a burden as my bank account is rapidly dwindling like a sack of weed at any party in lorain. I need to find a source that can put a deposit into my bank account very quickly. Things are starting to look very rough on my end. Im just hoping God blesses me very soon. Very Soon. I Need to Refocus.





+ I Need to buy myself my favorite bottle of alcohol and enjoy a drink by myself. I Need A Short Breather To Relax............ And











After i Find a job Of Course. I Need Money To Buy The Bottle Right?!?!?!
So My #1 Goal FOr Right now is find A Means Of Income. A J.O.B. MONEY! MONEY! MONEY!











I Love this Girl Right Now. Her Style, Her Music, Her Presence. Her. Its Just Something About Her That I Love. And I Stay Bumpin That New CD. She's My Favorite Singer Out Now Besides The Classics. Shes Just Something Unique.

Emotions

In The Words Of Beyonce & Co. "Its Just Emotions Taking Me Over." I Dont know how i feel at the present moment. I feel indifferent about things today. I Just dont know how i feel. Im Mellow but kinda down at the same time. I Want to See my Papi & He's ghost. I guess its a good thing that we aint smothering each other. He has time to see his friends and fam. but at the same time i want to see him. I feel like these last 2-3 days weve been really distant toward each other. Maybe its just me but i feel like i havent talked to him much. i guess maybe that comes with the relationship. I mean im hardly the expert this being my 1st ever real relationship. Were a month into our relationship and me i just want to be around him more i guess. I Love him so much and i dont want to lose him. I just want him close to me right now. Theres a road block keeping him away i suppose. But i mean if hes uncomfortable why not just say it. And I Mean he's gonna have to meet these people anyway right. There my immediate family so.... but i dunno i dont wanna rush nor ruin how good things are going right now, I LOVE THIS PERSON SO MUCH. He's Someone Who's Become Very Important And Special to My Heart In Such a very Short Time. I Mean My Mom Even Asked How He Was Doing Today. I Mean If Thats not a good sign what is yknow. But I guess this comes with it, this feeling when you cant be close to the one you love.


I Have to admit writing this down and Listening to some Classic Aaliyah - At Your Best (You Are Love) Really Makes Me Feel Up And Grateful For What I Have Right Now. I Love this Song. Makes Me Feel In Love.


Love......... Something So New To Me.

J.O.B. (Short Update

A Nigga Just may have a job waiting in the wings. Can U Say Happy! I Can (<-Funny Huh. Those Of U Who Get It Anyway:) But Im So Happy Got A Call back in like 2 hours. So Im Praying Wishing Hoping I Get Me A JOB. I Need this so BAD People u Have no Idea. Now I Must call the Love Of My Life With The Good News.

CLEVELAND!!!! CLEVELAND!!!!

A.L. Central Champions The Cleveland Indians Just WIPED THE FLOOR Wit the YANKEES!!!! Ending The Series 3-1. And Now theyre headed to Fenway to play the redsox. Haters Keep Hating. We Goin All The Way CLEVELAND!

Hmmmm........

The Tribe Is 2-1 Now. They Lost Last Night 8-4. 1 more game just 1 more game.

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I Went to Cedar Point yesterday. So fun. Havent been there since Prom 2005. I rode any and everything. After waiting in line for almost a hour and 10 minutes we finally boarded the new ride The Maverick. It was definantly worth the wait. I bitched the entire time we were waiting. But afterwards i was happy. Its definantly Definantly worth the wait. Cedars Points prices are rediculous. $3.00 for a 20oz Soda that you would pay at the most a $1.29 in a grocery store. $1.50 For A Bag Of Chips $1.50 For 50 cent candybars like M&Ms and Snickers not even king size. $5.00 for cheese fries milkshakes. $3-4.00 for Pop. $7-10.00 For Meals like hamburgurs chicken fingers chinese wit fries. Did i mention $2.99 for a Eggroll. A EGGROLL!!!!!!!!!!! Rediculous. I Refused to pay that much money for food. so i kinda starved and survived off others of pop (which my mom paid $8.00 for the refillable cup and refills were a $1.06) till i got home. I was already tired from the night before gettin about 5 hours of sleep. My Papi slept over and i woke him up after i got dressed. Then we said our goodbyes and then he ended up getting lucky and going to cedar Point with his fam. i seen him for about 5 seconds :( at the power tower. :( but i didnt get to hang wit him. Cuz we lost sight of him in the halloween parade thing they had goin on. I feel sorry for him tho i know he tired. we got lil to no sleep the night before woke up at 8:30 to go to cedar point then he got home at like 11:00 and had to go to wake up for work @ 4:00am. Yeah i know my babys tired. I Love Him So Much. I just Hate to hear and see him stressed cuz he doin so much. Not to mention his family bought a bar and he helpin there part time also. So He doing alot. I love Him.

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My BestFriend wentt to NYC. Lucky B. Can U say havent called since arriving. I Can already see someone walkin wit they RW scarf (in the summer time) at the movies or something. Serious. LMAO. Cant wait to here about it. lmao.

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Ahem. Where are all the Fine ass Black Men like this where i live. I Mean If i went to school with Dudes like this i would be at EVERY Track Meet. Rooting for his ass. I Mean Look At this dude and tell me he wouldnt be worth losing your voice over. lmao

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Mr. Justin Tryon AKA Mr. Arizona State

No Motivation

Mood: Bored/Thinking
In the Background: Wisin Y Yandel Feat Romeo(Aventura) - Noche De Sexo

Thinking About: Me. One thing i have always wanted to do and change about myself was my physique or lack there of. Its is one thing out of many i have always been self conscience about. its is one thing that I'm still the most conscience about. It is one thing about myself that i want to change. I feel if i had the body i wanted i would be so much more confident in myself as a person. I would have a much higher self esteem, a healthier outlook on life..... in other words i would feel and be overall a much greater person. Mentally & Physically. I believe i would feel so much better About ME! And Not To Mention I Would Still Look Damn Good When Im Like 40-50. Still Being Able To Pull Youngin's & Shit. LMAO That would be nice. :) My Problem Is Staying Motivated And Commited To It. I Think i want it but i dont have what it takes to stay with it. I Think I Need Patience & Acceptance. And To Realize that its not gonna come over night. And Try not to look too far down the road trying to see the big picture too quickly. I think im going to try to accept and love myself today and know that each day, im going to get better. I guess thats a way of looking at it. Im Going To try to stay Positve. And Try to keep my self SELF-MOTIVATED. I Want it so bad and i guess thats what i should tell myself when i feel like giving up. I WANT IT SO BAD!

MLB

The Tribe beat the yankees. 12-3 .!!!!!Securing The Lead In The Division Series. Im Hopin These Boys Can Go All The Way This Year. World Series '07! (Favorite Player - Catcher #41 Victor Martinez)

I Feel A Lil Sorry For A-Rod. Sike! That is One Sexy Ass Man Tho. That Man Defines Perfection. In The Dictionary It Would Look Like This

Perfection: per·fec·tion / [per-fek-shuhn]
1.
the state or quality of being or becoming perfect.
2.
the highest degree of proficiency, skill, or excellence, as in some art.
3.
a perfect embodiment or example of something.

4.
a quality, trait, or feature of the highest degree of excellence.
5.
the highest or most nearly perfect degree of a quality or trait.
6.
the act or fact of perfecting.

~~~He's Got It All. Athletic Talent. Check. The Contract. Check. Attractive. Check. The Physique. CHECK CHECK. ASS. TRIPLE CHECK~~~

JUST PERFECT! 20/10.

That Is All.

IT'S ME BITCHES!!!!!!!!!! :)

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Yes! It's Me Bitches! The #1 the only! Its been a while and alot of things have changed for the better. This is one time in life where im kinda content with alot thats going on in my life. Of course theres still many things i havent accomplished and dont have right now, but theres so much i have checked off m list of things to do. for one i came out to my parents. They both know. It was a big hurdle for me to jump over but i did it. my mom still isnt too okay wit it but her ass will get over it as long as im her son. My dad is way cool wit it. I feel like i can confide in him about my relationship. SI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im in a relationship. A relationship that is very important to me. Im in love. I love this person wit all my heart. In the words Of Ashanti "He's Like The Lighter To My Cigarette. Although this is my first relationship, my first love, i feel he is my soulmate. I cant see myself wit no one else. Were like Yin & Yang. I LOVE MY PAPI! LOVE HIM 2 DEATH. MY BABY MY NIGGA MY PAPI. WE DO US!

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Im acing School right now. I Mean its only the 4th week But i Got 3 A's. And Im So Glad. Im Focused Right Now. The only thing lacking is i dont have a J.O.B. right now which sucks. But i hope to find one by the end of this month. Cuz a nigga need money. Wanna Buy my baby sumthin for his Bday 2 Lmao.

As Far as right now life is ok. its actually ok. besides not having a job. Everythings O.k. ...........Yeah everything's O.K.

Some Eye Candy For Those Of Us Who Appreciate Fine Latinos When We See Em

Suave! But He Aint Got Nothin On My Papi! :)